I love all of the seasons that we have here in Wisconsin. Each of them have things about them that I love. But, Fall is one that I enter into the most reluctantly. I love summer: open windows, swimming pool, camping, not working, (WOOT!) less structure and busyness. I don't even mind mowing the lawn.
But, when the end of August comes, I have a hard time focusing on the things I love about Fall and instead I am mindful of things that are ending. Like, my relaxing coffee and quiet time on the screen porch - but more so, things that involve my relationships with others. It's the time when students that I have had the joy of serving with in our church youth group for 4 years head off to college. They have been a regular part of my life. Each year there are some that are hard to say "Good-bye" to. They will be missed.
This Sunday morning as we were praising God in song, I was mindful of Zach's voice next to me. I became overwhelmed with emotion thinking that this will be the last time in a while that I will have the joy of hearing him. Then, yesterday as I was looking for some pictures I came across a poem that was in a photo album. It's titled, "If I knew..." This one verse caught my eye.
"If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day."
I stood in church taking in the sound of his voice, loving most that he was praising the God he loves. We are so blessed! He, too, is leaving soon. I am so excited for what this semester will hold for him at the Contemporary Music Center on Martha's Vineyard. But, I will certainly miss having him around the house. Maybe it's a good time for me to be heading back to work. I am so mindful that even though both of the boys are a long ways off in miles, our hearts are close and bound together by Christ. We will always be together!
note to self: start getting up earlier
-- remember how beautiful Fall is
-- pray for the new youth group lives yet to be poured into
-- be thankful for God's MANY blessings